This is Screaming.

I cant seem to wake up, to re attatch or focus. this season effs with me and i feel like i am grasping at straws. I am going to find friends that dont exists, because my current friends are flaking or busy with school. i feel alone and unloved.

i need attention dammit!

school is not working, my brain is retarded. i spend hours on a saturday night writing a paper only to guess what i was smoking when i wrote it the next daay. i cannot be productive after a certain hour and after a certain amount of stress.

i had two panic attacks in less than 24 hours- that never happens. rar. life is crazy.